Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Day 16

I still feel pretty good.  Rarely hungry.  I only lost 0.2 lbs this week though so thats frustrating.  Im hoping its just my body adjusting and then Ill have a huge number next week.

I need to get all my water in today.  Yesterday I didnt and I played DDR so I should have drank more.  This process is a learning curve so I just need to keep at it and keep trucking along.

school is killing me.  I have 2 major tests tomorrow. I am currently updating my blog rather than study.  Procrastination for the win.  Im giving my self 20 mins before I start.  I have to watch a bunch of thermo videos and then make a study guide for pharmacy.  ughh

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Day 13

Today is the first day ive been hungry.  It is only a bit hungry but more dizzy and weak feeling.  I worked out last night so I think thats a lot of it.  Ive so far only had an extra cup of raw vegetables and 2 cans of diet soda.  Im a little worried about the amount of urine I am passing.   Its a lot and perfectly clear.  Im mostly just worried about my sodium levels.  Ive slowed down my water intake (i reached my daily goal a few hours ago)

We are playing dungeons and dragons.  There is food everywhere lol.  its not too bad.  except the reeses.  omg, but im still staying strong


school is killing me.  I studied for 5 hrs and I do not feel like I have made any progress.  A friend helped me set up one problem and I still cant solve it.   Its very frustrating feeling stupid.

Thursday, September 24, 2015

Was locked out of my account so... restart 1561810 and day 11

Ok to catch up..

11 days ago I started a weight loss program through Mariam hospital in Providence RI.  The gist of the program is:
3 shakes a day
6 ounces of protein
1.5 cups of vegetables
64 ounces of water

weekly classes
bi weekly doctors exams
weekly weigh ins.
12 weeks as above
20 weeks total
8 weeks of reintegration of food.

I fell so far off the wagon about a month ago that I almost fell onto another one.  I enjoyed food and life and everything for the last of the summer knowing that I was going to be starting this.

starting weight: 184.5
current weight 178.4

so i lost roughly 5 lbs the first week.  This is a lot, but it was mostly fluid.  I was peeing like 15 times a day, literally.  it was crazy.  Its calming down now though.  I workout 3x a week.

My goal for the end of the 20 weeks is to lose 40 lbs.   Then i want to spend the next couple months losing the last 20 lbs.  My ultimate goal is 120.

If i can lose this weight, my award will be new boobs =)


The last week before the diet I went to San Fransisco for an atheist meetup.  We do these every few months or so.  It was so much fun.  The house was beautiful.  We partied a ton and did touristy things in the city.  It was not enough time though, i definitely need to get back again to see the rest.

I became a member of a wine club (ill store it up til i can drink again) and then i had 3 bottles in my backpack and i fell over a curb and shattered one.  RIP.

there were about 30 of us total.  I really wish we could just all live together all the time.  Life would be awesome... until we all got sick of each other and started a turf war. hahah


ok, goal is to get back on track with blogging.  hopefully, see you tomorrow

Friday, August 14, 2015


I haven't updated because I've done so terrible diet wise.  It's really frustrating.  I will get back on track and start updating.

Friday, July 17, 2015

Month 2

I am still really struggling with depression.  It makes everything so difficult.  I haven't worked out in 3 days, I'm hoping to run to ight.   Yesterday I ate terrible all day.  Today I want to get back on track.  I want to spend the next 4 weeks doing weight watchers to the letter and then I may start a doctor approved strict diet regiment.    It's a 20 week program where I would hope to lose 40 lbs.  We shall see.

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Day 25

I'm struggling with depression and the past 2 days have been bad.  For 3 weeks I could barely eat 800 calories because I'm not hungry.  I've been having a little bit of sugar and now I'm so hungry all the time.  I ate like half a bag of trail mix today, like 4 pieces of sugar free chocolate, rice, a bagel, and hiked for only an hour.

I'm so frustrated.  All I want to do is lose this weight.  It's a constant struggle of depression and mood swings.  I wish it was the depression where I don't eat for days on end but nope.  It's the "all I want to do is eat everything"depression.

I'm ranting I know, I'm just so frustrated.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Day 24

I'm struggling with a lot of depression.  I ate a bunch of cool whip.  I couldn't eat for like 3 weeks and now all I want to do is eat.   It's so frustrating.  I did some wiifit and gardening. I'm sick of not losing weight and feeling like this.